he tried not to dwell on it, but he believed if june had found him dead rather than black out drunk, she would be so much more relived. Summary: . tommy skateboarded, played the guitar and drums, and was way to occupied being the cool kid on campus to worry about his studies. he let the feeling of grief overtake him until he was able to push himself up and onto his bed. im so sorry, i dont mean to make you feel bad. 3. nora it felt like venom on his tongue. he let a few of his tears fall, abruptly looking away, violently wiping at his eyes. like home. just because i get with other people sometimes doesnt mean i dont care about you. he couldnt get the image of previous events out of his mind. 4. liam Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted was right there infront of you - YouTube My baby My baby AboutPressCopyrightContact. Note: When you embed the widget in your site, it will match your site's styles (CSS). Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted is right there in front of you, Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings. i messed up, his voice a whisper, i got scared because youve been so so good to me lately but i've beensuch a bad husband. but then the tears never came. in a desperate attempt to control his breathing, he fell to the ground, his body formed a small shaking ball on the ground. he knew they talked about him a lot, but he usually initiated the conversations and they would just go from there. 2. june was now watching them from the bottom of the stairs, 3. his mom was gripping the hood of his hoodie, holding him back from trying to hug his dad, he put in all his weight to push his mom off him and promptly ran into oscars side, hugging his legs. 6. henry. 4. liam its not that i think you dont love me, you know i would do anything for you. alex looked up through his eyelashes, his eyes wet and shiny. i love you so bloody much it hurts. you did not deserve this, at all. Please consider turning it on! alex met tommy his first year at college at a bar. im sorry, he whispered, his eyes glossy. Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with. im sorry. alex stood up, moved upstairs ignoring henrys shouts. 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burning red he was practically vibrating with joy as he led his senior class in moving the tassel, then leading them into throwing their caps into the air. are you single? he inwardly cringed at the question. he watched with pride in his eyes and his boyfriend moved across the stage, taking his diploma, and doing a dramatic gesture of pumping his fists in the air. i pushed them off but i still feel gross, but its all my fault.. as well as all he wanted was for it to be a good day, he would have taken a decent day at best, but all he got was horrible. for most of the names called he zoned out, just barely making out the syllables coming out of his principles mouth, but once he heard liams name he was suddenly self aware. trying to know somebody you've never met realizing all you've ever wanted was right there in front of you he clapped so hard, and let out a small shout of approval, before locking eyes with liam, his eyes brightening all that much more. alex had dumped so much on him at once he didnt know how to process it. like the colors in autumn so bright why do you have to be so sensitive all the fucking time.. trying to know somebody you've never met now youre crying, are you serious? This work could have adult content. he might say this is what hes been looking for since tommy. henrys eyes shot up, the happiness in them quickly replaced with worry once he saw alexs drooped frame. Presenting you Touching Him Was Like Realizing All You Ever Wanted Lyrics by Fifth Harmony. it felt like venom on his tongue. left kudos on this work! If you proceed you have agreed that you are willing to see such content. he didnt deserve that comfort. alex has a horrible day at school. he locked the door to their bedroom, throwing as many of his clothes as he could into a duffel bag. see, you know i love you, and i cant believe you would ever doubt me about that. Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met. liam was only a friend. the bars were cold against his face and made him cringe. the argument was promptly finished with a resounding slap echoing through the house. burning red you cannot possibly think that thats true, because youre so so important to me. liam reached his arm out to try and grab alexs shoulder but he abruptly thrust his body backward, practically falling on his back. Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong "don't. don't touch me. alex spotted liam moving towards where both of their families sat together, liams family basically separating oscar and ellen. but thats not true. he pushed himself up on his tiptoes letting his lips meet tommys. he didnt deserve that comfort. touching him (was like realizing all you've ever wanted was right there in front of you) camrynkenobi. ?also, this is me projecting onto alex. his love's like he pulled them up over his head, covering his ears, letting out soft sobs into the silent air. tip: katekyou "alternate universe" sort:>words, 1. ellen and oscar i know. congrats alex, proud of you bro, liam responded, pulling alex into some sort of frat bro hug. Fighting with him was like, trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer. well i had to have been asking for it, right? he sat down in the media center during his free period, taking out the calculus homework he was just assigned the period before. instead, with the sounds of alexs pleads of sorry and please forgive me, and one last final push, june, close to yelling, GET OUT!. The original title of the song is Red. it was then he realized he had never stopped his mumbles of stop and please and no.. burning red Album: Taylor Swift Tribute Album: Greatest Hits Streamed, loving him was like is that what youwant? alex slowly nodded before he felt henrys soft lips against him. this chapter hurt so much more because it hits close to home. alex turned away from liam, throwing his head up towards the ceiling, feeling all the tears rush down his cheeks. liam was only a friend. his expression was empty as he stared ahead, his body curling in on itself on instinct. thatsamebarista throwing herself at him from across the table. he ignored the scolding coming from his mom about how he should be in bed. Missing him was dark gray, all alone Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met But loving him was red Loving him was red. hi, is this seat taken? alex didnt even get a second to respond before she continued, im jordan, we have english together. he truly did not care about the girl sitting in front of him, all he really cared about was finding liam. he pushed . and that was it. enjoy!! While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. you cannot possibly think that thats true, because youre so so important to me. liam reached his arm out to try and grab alexs shoulder but he abruptly thrust his body backward, practically falling on his back. liam always claimed he just wasnt ready yet but alex did not believe he would ever be ready. [Verse 1: Ally & Normani] Loving him is like driving a new Maserati. the night was promptly finished with june showing alex how horrible of a boyfriend tommy was. Losing him was blue like I'd never known Missing him was dark grey all alone Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met But loving him was red Oh red burning red Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes Tell myself it's time now, gotta let go But moving on from him is impossible When I still see it all in my head Burning red! when he finally got a moment alone with liam in his room, he pushed liam off of him in the middle of their kiss, and crossed his arms around himself. he never meant to get so angry. he threw the door open, staring at henry who sat at their dinner table, the table all set with two plates filled with food. it hurts me and makes me feel bad that you think like that. i understand alex. you have not . because if so, yes alex. 2. june hi, is this seat taken? alex didnt even get a second to respond before she continued, im jordan, we have english together. he truly did not care about the girl sitting in front of him, all he really cared about was finding liam. and i got scared because im selfish, and a horrible person who lets horrible things happen to them and soon- soon youre gonna realize all of this and leave me and im gonna end up just like my parents. nora quickly made her way out of the claremont household, leaving alex alone with his thoughts. i just dont think i can do this anymore liam- i love you so much, but its so hard. he locked the door to their bedroom, throwing as many of his clothes as he could into a duffel bag. he was at the age where everything in his life shouldve been so perfect. he then allowed tommy to drag him to the bedroom and allowed tommy to take him. no. Work Search: I KNOW, his shout promptly cutting her sentence off, I KNOW IT WAS SELFISH, IM JUST SO FUCKING SELFISH RIGHT? in all honesty, alex didnt want to do what tommy wanted from him, but he didnt want tommy to be mad at him. and because alex would do anything for a little male validation, he completely and utterly folds. all he knew was that once he heard the words, fine then leave, see if i fucking care leave his moms mouth, he had to do something. Taylor Swift Tribute Album: Greatest Hits Streamed Album, Taylor Swift Tribute Album: Greatest Hits Streamed. alex glanced at the dinner now abandoned, now cold, sitting on the table, i ruined your plans for tonight, he croaked, looking up at henry with wet eyes. how much longer do you need to discover yourself. when he got home, his first instinct was the invite nora over, hoping for some positive reinforcement from her. Touching Him Was Like Realizing All You Ever Wanted Lyrics, Oh Sanam Lyrics Tony Kakkar & Shreya Ghoshal, Is Qadar Lyrics Darshan Raval | Tulsi Kumar, Tujhe Bhoolna Toh Chaha Lyrics Jubin Nautiyal. like home. he met her eyes, scared and tearful, but she did not hold his gaze. he looked down at where his arms were tightly wrapped around his chest, wishing june would just reach out and pull him into a hug. i just don't think i can do this anymore liam- i love you so much, but it's so hard. and if you possibly think, in any world, that this would make me stop loving youthat i could ever stop loving you at all, then you are sorely mistaken, henry smiled, pulling alex into his arms. 95 guests | TISCALI MEDIA, a.s. | it is super unlikely that the people in alexs life did not hug him on a regular basis, but im a sucker for angst so. alex took one look in henrys bottomless blue eyes before collapsing into the nearest chair, cries bubbling out of him. alex finally gets the comfort he needs in his times of hurt. for most of the names called he zoned out, just barely making out the syllables coming out of his principles mouth, but once he heard liams name he was suddenly self aware. instead, alex broke the silence for him, continuing on, someone kissed me today and i didnt want it. that had to be the case. he couldnt tell henry. 6. henry. fighting with him was like Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong [Chorus:] her definition of horrible was getting put next to someone she didnt like in one of her college lectures. all he wanted was for it to be a good day, he would have taken a decent day at best, but all he got was horrible. cause loving him was red Work Search: But loving him was red, red, red, red, red, red. i messed everything up, and now youre mad at me. he pushed it aside and went on with the rest of the day as it shouldve gone. it was then he realized he had never stopped his mumbles of stop and please and no.. left kudos on this work! it does not go according to alexs plan. and i could see it all in my head hes assuming he said something because thats what henry did. yeah yeah red and that brings him here, hobbling up the stairs. do youEVERthink of anyone besides yourself? i was gonna hold off on posting this one, but i could wait any longer. he couldve cried on the spot. and im horrible for thinking like that, but im just so bad at love. henry could only stare dumbfounded at alex, his eyes wide. he cocooned himself in his blankets, the energy of his sobs tiring him out, and carrying him off to sleep. . just as quickly as he got there, he felt himself get pulled off, falling to the ground. do you want me to feel bad? Down a dead-end street. i guess im just worried, but im sorry. but everything in his gut shifted when he saw the way liam beamed at him with joy mid speech. what? alex glanced at the dinner now abandoned, now cold, sitting on the table, i ruined your plans for tonight, he croaked, looking up at henry with wet eyes. if alex didnt feel the pleasure he felt he should have in this moment, he doesnt tell anyone. ?also, this is me projecting onto alex. the same barista coming around the counter after alex had sat down at a table, sitting right across from him. he was absolutely heartbroken. im not mad per se, i just would have never said any of this stuff to you. i just miss him, alex whispered, his voice barely audible. and because alex would do anything for a little male validation, he completely and utterly folds. henry im sorry. you did not deserve this, at all. i am really enjoying writing this. continued until liam showed up and pulled jordan off him. okay? all alex could do in response was nod as he slowly lowered himself down to the floor until he was sitting. it was his last first day of high school and it was so important to him. 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